To hold on or to let go?

“All endings are also beginnings. We just don’t know it at the time.”

Yes, I decided to write again. I’ve been lost since I got my first job offer as a support representative on one of the IT-BPO companies in Metro. I totally miss writing and reading blog posts.. and so here I am!

Five months, it’s been five months since I have that fear inside that I always hide when I’m in front of everybody. Five months of hard work and sleepless nights. Five months? That’s one of the best five months of my life. And in just a snap! Booom, it already ended. All of it.

I enjoyed my job, and I always have in mind that this is where I belong, this is the career that I want eversince I graduated from college, this is where I can show my potentials and this is the field that will help me become mature enough to take another step in life. This is where you can be what you want. And the best thing is.. fun is everywhere.

The bad news is? that five months is only a dream. A beautiful nightmare that you yourself, you don’t want to be awakened by somebody. You just want to fall asleep and be in that dream but you cannot. I can’t!

I know that this happen because God will gave you what you want and once you already have that something always remind yourself that this is a blessing from Him. And all the blessing that He gave, he can retrieve it if you can’t handle it well. And take note that if God’s want you to give up something, He will give out. So another lesson learned.

Moving forward by finding peace and restoration.

“Sometimes when you sacrifice something precious, you’re not really losing it. You’re just passing it on to someone else.”
-Mitch Albom, Five People You Meet In Heaven

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Eleksyon Meme

Tapos na ang eleksyon at marami parin ang hindi maka-move on sa resulta. May mga kandidatong di mo inakalang mananalo kasi di raw deserving na manalo sila, may mga bet ka namang manalo pero yun natalo, anyways that’s democracy, sila ang pinili ng taong bayan para maluklok sa pwestong yan at wala na tayong magagawa. Sa kabila nang batikos (mostly kabataan) sa social media sites ay nawala ang pagkadismaya ko sa resulta ng eleksyon sa mga larawang pumukaw ng aking atensyon. Here are some of the funny meme’s I saw on fb and twitter:

Miriam Binay Meme

Habemus Binay!

Nancy Binay

The Nancy Binay’s Meme. Sikat na ‘tong si Ms. Nancy Binay bago pa lang ang election, naungkat ang di niya raw pagdalo sa mga public debates, ang pagtakbo niya sa mataas na posisyon sa kabila ng wala kulang na karanasan sa politika, at sa mga pahayag ni Vice Ganda sa kanya. Ngunit sa kabila ng lahat ng batikos ay hindi parin nagpa-apekto itong binansagan nilang Blacksmith at pumasok parin sa Magic 12 ng senado at akalain mong nakapasok pa sa top 5. Nakakatuwang isipin na pilit nilang dinidiin si Nancy Binay bagamat hindi lang siya ang may kulang na kaalaman sa politika, nahahanay sa pangalan niya sina Grace Poe, Bam Aquino at Cynthia Villar pero nakakapagtatakang trip ng taong bayan na pagkatuwaan itong si Binay. Siguro dahil sa kulay nitong ang bilis mapansin? Hindi ko lang alam.

The hashtag #IpasokSiDick

Dick Gordon Meme.

This hasthag caught my attention on Twitter. Unfortunately, the Red Cross guy Dick Gordon landed on the 13th spot in the senatorial race. Maraming supporters itong si Dick Gordon at isa na ako ‘dun dahil sa leadership skills nito pero nakakalugkot na hindi siya umabot sa Magic 12 ng senado.

“It’s all about performance. #ipasoksidick #Erection2013 #Halayan” Literal na nagtrend ito at sinang-ayunan naman ng mga malilikhaing isip ng mga pinoy. Nakakalokong-nakakatawa, basta sa kalokohan magaling talaga ang pinoy pero may good side rin ang pagtrend nito sa mga supporters ni Gordon.

Fansign

The Asiong Salonga-Dirty Harry Battle

Isa ang laban nina Mayor Alfredo Lim at Former President Joseph Estrada para sa pagka-alkalde ng Maynila ang inabangan at sinuportahan ko ngayong eleksyon. I’m a big fan of Mayor Lim, in fact Lolo Lim pa ang tawag naming magka-classmate sa kanya. Eversince ayoko naman talaga dito kay Erap eh, una hindi ako panatag na siya ang uupo sa pwesto bilang Mayor ng kapitolyo ng bansa at pangalawa, hindi ko maintindihan ang mga sinasabi niya. Hindi ko alam kung ngongo siya o lasheeeng lang pag nagsasalita basta choppy.

Nanalo si Erap sa botong 342,254 votes while Lim got 307,291 base sa 97.5% of vote na nabilang. Ikinalungkot ko ito pero wala namang magagawa ang pagrereklamo ko. Malaki ang utang na loob ko kay Mayor Lim kasi kung hindi dahil sa kanya ay hindi ako ga-graduate ng walang tuition at miscellaneous fees na binabayaran, maski singkong-butas ay hindi sa amin hiningi. Pero sabi nga ng kaibigan ko, the best way to do right now is to pray for the new elected persons sa aming lungsod.

Erap Defeats Lim.

PCOS

Sa kabila ng lahat ng mga naganap ngayong eleksyon, sa pagloloko ng mga PCOS machines na ikinumpara ng iba sa cd-r king na puros topakin ang mga supply, sa kakulangan ng indelible ink at pagkaubos ng tinta ng mga panulat, sa mga bigong nanalo tulad ng mga manok kong sila Hontiveros, Hagedorn, Gordon, Bro. Villanueva, Casino, at ni Lolo Lim, sa kaunting brownout na naganap, sa mga armas na nakumpiska sa kabila ng gun ban, at marami pang iba.

 

Indelible Ink

Masasabi kong naging maayos at organisado ang eleksyon ngayong taon at inaasahan ko pang mas magiging high-tech ang eleksyon sa mga susunod na taon, tulad ng touch screen style na botohan, pwede ring online voting or sa text na mismo para mas lalong maging interactive sa nakakarami, anong malay natin? Muli, congrats sa lahat ng nanalo nawa’y magampanan ninyo ng maayos ang mga nakapatong na tungkulin sa inyong mga balikat.

Ang mga larawan ay nakuha sa iba’t ibang social media sites.

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Paalam Kaibigan!

Kung ang buhay ay isang
Umagang nakangiti
At ikaw ay ang lupang
Sinusuyo ng bituin

Di mo man silip ang langit
Di mo man silip
Ito’y nandirito pa rin

Kung ang lahat ay may katapusan
Itong paglalakbay ay makakarating
Din sa paroroonan
At sa iyong paglisan
Ang tanging pabaon ko ay pag-ibig

Sa pagbuhos ng ulan
Sa haplos ng hangin
Alaala mo ay nakaukit
Sa pisngi ng langit

Di man umihip ang hangin
Di man umihip
Ika’y nandirito pa rin

Kung ang lahat ay may katapusan
Itong paglalakbay ay makakarating
Din sa paroroonan
At sa iyong paglisan
Ang tanging pabaon ko ay pag-ibig

Nagulat ako sa nasagap na balita. Ikina-lungkot ko ito nung simula pero ako’y nagagalak sapagkat nasa mabuti ka ng sitwasyon ngayon. Humanga ako sa iyong katapangan at katatagan sa iyong huling mga araw, hindi ka bumitaw, hindi ka sumuko at mas lalo ka pang kumapit sa Kanya.

“The fear of death follows from the fear of life. A man who lives fully is prepared to die at any time.” ― Mark Twain

Nakikiramay ako sa iyong paglisan. Maligayang paglalakbay MMC. =)

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Job Finding

Yes, it is official! I am not a student anymore and looking for a job that would fit my knowledge, prowess and ability.

One week after my graduation, I started surfing the web all-day and night searching for my target companies: IT-related corporations, and I found out that I submitted almost 30 applications thru email and jobstreet.com.  I am glad that my co-blogger-friend, Rhence is finally entering the corporate world, and I want also to find a job just like her as soon as possible. *No pressure at all!*

Last Monday, I went to this particular company trying my luck that I will be able to pass all the processes they are requiring. I passed the exam, the initial interview and the technical interview. The engineer who interviewed me left me this, ‘Just wait for a call and we will tell you if you are qualified to this particular position.’

I also attended this blockbuster job fair last Wednesday and also get the same blitz of words.

This is not easy. I know what they’re keep on trying to put on our heads that finding a job is not a very easy thing to do. I treat it before as a trivial matter, but I realized that it’s not!

Why fit-in when you can standout?

I keep on processing these thoughts in my mind. What makes me stand-out? I will give them an affable smile with a pleasing personality? Sell myself to them by confidently answering and chewing their not-so-easy questions? Or to joust with everyone else, step into them, and wait for an open opportunity?

To stand-out is to be easily seen or noticed. I admit that I am not that good as others; I don’t have the experiences yet. I’m not that great in answering straightforward English questions and the result is I buckle a lot of times. My skills are in the process, I’m still studying and reading articles and tutorials as of now. Even if I’m considering myself as a novice in this new step of my life, I can say only one that I am confident about.

“I have Jesus Christ.”

In every job interviews and examinations, I know that He is always there for me. Kasama ko Siya sa lahat ng oras kaya walang dahilan para matakot at mahiya. Alam kong patuloy Niya akong sasamahan sa paglalakabay na ito hanggang marating ko ang inaasam na trabahong ipagkakaloob Niya sa akin ng may tiwala at galak.

Happy job-finding to all newly graduates out there! =)

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Graduation Day!

“The root of education is bitter but the fruit is sweet.”

Finally I graduated after 5 years of staying at our university. I finally reach the end of this student-life and will face new challenges in the real world. I am officially belongs to the unemployed sector in this society. Hahaha! No more allowances, terror professors, sickening projects and board works, cramming to major subjects, no more solving problems in calculus and differential equations, any more cutting classes, sleepless and restless overnights.

I’m not engaging the fact that I must move on and face the reality that I’m no longer a student anymore. I’m astonished that I belong to the 89 graduates of Bachelor of Science in Computer Engineering in our batch. Yet, I know for myself that after the ceremony of our graduation, the battlefield of the new young professionals of this country will lay out, waiting us newly grads to come and compete with each other until we finally achieve what we want.

The beginning of the end will start now.

But before leaving the life that I used to know, I just want to thank:

The Almighty God for everything. For providing me the courage to overcome the different challenges of this life, for the wisdom, right knowledge and understanding, for guiding and not giving up on me even I failed over and over again. I owe it all to you my Lord.

To my ever supportive Parents. Salamat Ma, sa aral na minsan ay binabalewala ko, sa paggising sa akin sa umaga pag 7:00 AM ang pasok ko, sa pagluluto ng ulam para may maibaon ako sa OJT, sa pagtityagang magtrabaho para masuportahan ang araw-araw kong baon, sa pangungutang para sa thesis at projects sa school, sa sermon pag gabi na ko nakakauwi o sa di ko pag-uwi, sa mga paalala ng mga dapat gawin, sa tampuhan, iyakan at saya. Salamat Pa, sa pagmamalaki sa akin sa mga kainuman mo, sa paulit-ulit na sermon, paninita at pagiging mahigpit sa akin, sa tulong pinansyal at sa pagmamahal niyo ni Mama sa akin. I am thankful to the Lord for giving both of you as my parents that will do everything to help me reach my goal in life.

To my true Friends that accepted me. Having each other lessen the pressure that the schools bring. I’m so proud of us that we both serve the Lord and balancing the requirement of life in this world. Thank you kapatid’s for helping me to draw much closer to God.

As they said, you must step-up and leave your comfort zone because you are entering a new step, a new journey and a new experience.

“We can make our plans, but the Lord determines our steps.”

-Proverbs 16:9

I know that there is something out there; a bright opportunity stores for me. I know that the Lord will help me to accomplish those things. I’m not dreaming anymore, my dreams are finally here. Sabi nga sa kanta ni Carrie Underwood: ‘All my dreams are in Your eyes.’ The race I am taking doesnt end here, in fact it is much more difficult compared before, I know I can do all things because I have the best boss, and that is Jesus Christ. Again, congratulations batch 2013 graduates!

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Make or Break?

“Faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.” -Hebrews 11:1

The pictures says it all. May the Lord provides the wisdom and the strength I need. This is it! Will I make it? or break it? #JudgementDay

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Financial Freedom

The key to financial freedom is knowing that God is rich and generous.. -Kuya (?)

I’ve been struggling this past week’s regarding to my financial stability. Kakabalik lang ng internet namin at kakatapos lang bayaran ng lahat ng requirements for graduation. Hindi ako dapat mag-reklamo na ganito ang sitwasyon ko tungkol sa issue ng pera. Kung sobrang nagigipit ako, what more sina Mama at Papa?

Nasabi kong nasa peak point na ako ng kagipitan ng wala na halos natitira sa baon ko every day, hindi ko tuloy magawang makapag-save kahit kaunti..ayoko naman kasing ihingi lahat ng gastusin kay Mama. Kung pwede ako na yung bahala sa iba, ako na.

Two consecutive weeks na rin akong di nakaka-attend sa main services ng church namin sa Cubao, sa isang branch lang ako nakakapunta kasi mas malapit at di hassle sa pamasahe. Nilalakad ko na nga lang yung isang sakay para makasave kahit 8php, pero ganun parin, at the end of the day feeling ko walang-wala na naman ako. Sana’y na akong walang pera pero eto yung panahon na sobrang hindi ko na alam kung kailan pa ako kami makakaahon.

‘Yet true Godliness with contentment is itself great wealth.’

– 1 Timothy 6:6

At some point I realize something after reading 1 Timothy 6. As easy as that! I know na God will bless me with riches of some kind. Hindi man necessarily be material possessions for now but soon I know na I will be able to succeed. If will Niya for me to experience this kind of thing, I am welcoming more struggles and challenges regarding financial issues.

I will just enjoy what God has given to me right now and be thankful because He wants me to enjoy what I have. Just continue for being faithful to Him and the Lord will also be faithful to us. 

The Lord provides!

Credits to Hane.

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