I don’t know what is happening to me this past few days. Lost? Confused? Dispirit? Stunned? I don’t know! I’m longing for something, but I don’t know what is it. I can’t focus. I easily get angry. I’m always worried. I’m afraid! I want to go to somewhere, far from here, I want to be alone just for once. Ugh! I think my brain will burst and fall into pieces. I can’t hardly breathe. It feels like as if somebody was gripping my throat. The feeling is awful, unexplainable.
Jesus beckoned to me but I neglect him, instead I go to the other way. I admire human approval rather than the approval of God. Harsh but true. Wake up Vincent, wake up!
“The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.”
Deuteronomy 31:8
I know that I still learn things the hard way. The Father sent a Holy Spirit who’s always there to reminded us in all the things that we do and never leave us (John 14:15), but in times of trial I mistrust him. Why? I don’t know. I don’t want this kind of feeling anymore. Apathetic me. I am ashamed of myself. So sorry Lord. I know you have a great purpose in my life. I will never leave you this time, I will continue walking with you Lord even it hurts on my part. Everything’s will be alright. All I need is faith and trust my life according to your will.
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