“Has this world been so kind to you that you should leave with regret? There are better things ahead than any we leave behind.”
–C.S. Lewis
Caught in intervene. I’m always found myself in between from what is good and what is bad.
Well, this semestral break and long weekend kills me! Here at home and nothing to do. We used to celebrate All Saints and All Soul’s day at home. We didn’t go to the cemetery because my family and its extended family are still alive and kicking. Praise God! We choose to stay at home and cook something sweet and sticky like biko.
Halloween is one of my favorite holidays aside from Christmas day and New Year’s day. I am fascinated with lost souls, haunted houses and paranormal stories, coffin designs, horror movies and anything you can relate to Halloween. In short I am curious tp death but I am afraid to die before, not now.
Before, when I was in the dark side of my life I used to write to my dark little notebook what I want if I am already dead. The list goes:
-Black coffin only
-You are not required to come to my burial mass if you did not choose to wear black
-My set-up would be solemn (not so bright)
-The bouquet of flowers should be a combination of red and black roses
-My song in my burial parade would be Basil Valdez hit song Natutulog ba ang Diyos
And after writing that proposed plan on my death, I attached a letter to my Mom saying that she must fulfill those last wish. The list above is true to the best of my knowledge. =P I’m still in the process of choosing which cemetery will be able to profit my body but Manila Chinese Cemetery belongs to my short-listed cemeteries. I love riding LRT when I am going home because I will have a sneak peek to my favorite cemetery along Abad Santos Avenue to R. Papa station. I don’t have a blood of Chinese but I still want that cemetery for the good of my body.
Remembering these things makes me laugh. Before, I don’t think the life the way it used to be. It is okay for me if I end up in hell or in heaven. I am planning for earthly wealth when I died. I really just don’t care! -Wrong, wrong, wrong!
Realizations.. The best way to live is to assure that my name will be written in the book of life. Nothing more, nothing less. I am not afraid to die anymore because I know that God will not leave me as long as I commit my life to Him. Surrendering my all and accepting Him as my savior. I don’t want to throw my body in hell where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth (Luke 13:28). Remembering my loved ones that has been passed away made me think that.. ‘where are they?’ Hmm.
I will continue to spread God’s unfailing love, for us to be saved and we will be joining others in heaven where eternal life awaits. (Yes! We claimed it.)
”When the time comes for you to die, you need not be afraid, because death cannot separate you from God’s love.”
-Charles H. Spurgeon
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